I tell people that my mind does not go a hundred miles a minute, but somewhere in the recesses of my mind I develop thoughts like this where living for Christ is worth more than any luxury cruise down a canal or my next paycheck. Within all this rambling lies the question: how can I live life abundantly for Him?
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Have you ever just sat and thought about nothing? Just watched the world float by as if there was nothing in it but you. Today I sat along the Amstel Canal in Amsterdam. Life just seemed to freeze. As all the Sunday afternoon boat riders steered their crafts through the polluted water I watched. I watched and knew life was worth more. Life was worth more than fitting an image; more than trying to suit others' wishes for myself; more than making a statement so that people can look at me. Then I began to walk. I knew at that very moment I was sauntering past women that were hidden behind red curtains, not knowing the hope and the boundless love that I know. Their lives hang in the balance on the lure they can exude and the revenue from their wares. I have come to understand the preciousness and tenderness of life. For me, as a believer I must figure out how to show this....to show this when I walk along the road, when I lie down and when I get up.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I have been realizing lately that people that I depend on will not be here next year. Certain people in our dorm I have been able to depend on to help me in tasks and fill in when I forget or just did not know about something. I have come to the shocking realization that I can not expect that sort of ability any more. Soon they will not be here anymore and I will have to be conscious by myself of these sort of things. I have tended to use that as a crutch. I am trying to be more intentional and aware of the times I need to step in and do things so I can begin implementing those tasks or planning for next year. Preparation for the future without these certain people is key...I just didn't think it would be so soon.
Friday, May 8, 2009
I wonder when life will slow down....I feel like it is a whirlwind and we are just perpetually moving without any coherency. I know our girls are wanting a break. I know I am wanting a break. I know everyone on staff is wanting a break. Patience is wearing thin on most people's parts. Last night our dorm was chaos. Girls were just trying to get away from things; tensions were high; and there were many things we had to get done. I want to enjoy this time, but I also don't like the frustrations that arise. But I guess you have to take the good with the bad.