Friday, January 29, 2010
I look out the window and it almost depresses me. What once was powdered covered fields and balconies are now being destroyed by the rain drops that melt it away. I feel like my life is in this constant cycle too. At one point it will look perfect and smooth and then all of a sudden something happens and my life turns into slush and life becomes mucky. But then it will clean up and go away, but we must go through those times too. Life isn't always a fresh snowfall, it is also the muddy melted snow patches on the side of the road.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Life has never seemed to stop. As we have gotten older we tend to add more to our plate. We do not have enough hours in the day. And then we take on more, for whatever reason. It may be to make us feel important; it maybe be for us to feel needed; it may be for the satisfaction that something is getting done; it may be for the fear of being idle. But for whatever reason we all at some point have abandoned what we once knew as children and so easily have forgotten. Sitting in grass and looking at insects crawl amongst the blades; spinning on a tire swing till you are so close to vomiting, but you keep spinning anyways; accessorizing Barbies just to see what they look like; running around all afternoon, not caring about the sweat on your brow nor the plant in your hair. What happened to those days? Now my days are focused on my image, if I am loving people well, how I am being effective in people's lives, if I am following the will of God, if I am living a life that is honorable? Yes, some of these things are worth living for, but in the same instance God did call us to live with child-like faith. With openness and with out inhibitions is how children live...lets live our faith like that!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
If you have ever gone on a short term missions trip they always try to prepare you by warning you that you need to be flexible; you never know what is going to happen. Well, I guess life is like that anywhere, not just short term trips. I just feel like every day is a different adventure in this dorm. One minute we are grocery shopping, the next take emergency runs to the ER, then get a call saying a prospective student is coming over, next make this many cookies, next girls asking, "how do I clean this", next tucking girls in, then checking their homework...and at the end of the day you wonder where did it all go. After being here I don't know if I can really relax...I don't know if I won't be able to manage life without something constantly going on around me. Life moves at a lightening speed here. We complain so much about how semesters drag on, but really...you blink and they're gone.