LiFe?

Have you ever just sat and thought about nothing? Just watched the world float by as if there was nothing in it but you.  Today I sat along the Amstel Canal in Amsterdam.  Life just seemed to freeze. As all the Sunday afternoon boat riders steered their crafts through the polluted water I watched.  I watched and knew life was worth more.  Life was worth more than fitting an image; more than trying to suit others' wishes for myself; more than making a statement so that people can look at me.  Then I began to walk.  I knew at that very moment I was sauntering past women that were hidden behind red curtains, not knowing the hope and the boundless love that I know.  Their lives hang in the balance on the lure they can exude and the revenue from their wares.  I have come to understand the preciousness and tenderness of life.  For me, as a believer I must figure out how to show this....to show this when I walk along the road, when I lie down and when I get up.  

I tell people that my mind does not go a hundred miles a minute, but somewhere in the recesses of my mind I develop thoughts like this where living for Christ is worth more than any luxury cruise down a canal or my next paycheck.  Within all this rambling lies the question: how can I live life abundantly for Him?

SoMeThInG nEw

I have been realizing lately that people that I depend on will not be here next year.  Certain people in our dorm I have been able to depend on to help me in tasks and fill in when I forget or just did not know about something.  I have come to the shocking realization that I can not expect that sort of ability any more.  Soon they will not be here anymore and I will have to be conscious by myself of these sort of things.  I have tended to use that as a crutch.  I am trying to be more intentional and aware of the times I need to step in and do things so I can begin implementing those tasks or planning for next year.  Preparation for the future without these certain people is key...I just didn't think it would be so soon.  

CrAzInEsS!!!!

I wonder when life will slow down....I feel like it is a whirlwind and we are just perpetually moving without any coherency.  I know our girls are wanting a break.  I know I am wanting a break.  I know everyone on staff is wanting a break.  Patience is wearing thin on most people's parts.  Last night our dorm was chaos.  Girls were just trying to get away from things; tensions were high; and there were many things we had to get done.  I want to enjoy this time, but I also don't like the frustrations that arise.  But I guess you have to take the good with the bad.